this morning, my was found dead. She had OD on rynotauss her death is my fault because i ended up going to ST. Vincents after swalowing 12 tylenols. After that I ended up going to a phyc ward for 1 week, and the an outpaitent program for 2 months. Once out of the hositial, we began to communicte again. We went out to mcdonalds, talked on the phone. but she never seemed the same. Everytime i would see her, she would allways seem like she was in a rut. I asked her wats wrong on mutiple occasions but she said nothing. eventualy she stoped wanting to go places, talk on the phone ect. and when school statred it was apparent she was depressed, but wouldet admit it. So at 12:00pm, after not showing up at school, and not responding to her dads phone calls (he was out of town), the police arived and she was found dead in her bed with a pail next to her full of vomit, and her note under her pillow. She said i should forget in it. WHat should i do
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Her death is my fault cause i had told her about my atmpted sucied and she tried to convince me not to do it but she couldent. Now im back on that same boat i was on in may. Another reason i know its my falt is because she was allway reltivly happy and uselly told me about thing going on in her life, good or bad. So i was the bad thing in her life she didnt tell me about. what should i do to ease this missory.